coltenmurray - Coming to a Close

Its so nice to be able to blog again!! I enjoy letting everyone back home know what has all been going on. Although I have to let you know that I am writing this post with some sadness, because of the fact that I'm writing this on another laptop. Unfortunately yesterday my Acer decided that it didn't want to turn on anymore. I don’t know if it was because the fact that it is an Acer, or that my Old Spice bottle exploded in my bag and it soaked most of the liquid up. Whatever it was it sucks that I lost the blog posts I was going to put up, along with all my pictures I saved on it. I do still have all the pics on my camera, its just that I have only space for about 15 more pictures. All in all, just not a good start to the last two weeks in Nicaragua.

So I guess you guys don’t know where I have been for the last 2 weeks, I don’t think I mentioned it anyways. For some reason there was a big pastor conference at our compound, so we all got kicked out for a week. Which meant we had to take refuge in the touristy city of Leon. So we all got split up into our teams of 6 and got a map to where our Hostel was located. Some people were pretty frustrated that we had to leave but I was super psyched, we were finally on our own and got to experience what the three months are going to be like in Africa. Which I guess I haven't explained either, so our two Squad Leaders, Matt and Brittany are with us until December. But, In the Philippines after a month they peace out and were completely on our own for the rest of the time on the trip. So this week in Leon was such a good experience to see what we were going to be faced with when Matt and Brit leave. Also the ministry opportunities were left completely up to us, which was another blessing because we could be as productive as we wanted to be. On the first day our team arrived we kinda just chilled at the Hostel and relaxed. The second day was when we got to work on what we wanted to accomplish in Leon. Literally a lot of our ministry just consisted of us praying and asking God what he wanted us to do. That type of ministry lead us to this organization called Quezeltrekkers which did such amazing works in the city of Leon. Most of them were European so it was awesome to be able to speak to some people that spoke English. But they soon ended up leading us to a preschool that they had thought we would really enjoy, and we did!!!. I just think I need to explain this school a little bit. It isn't just any school you would find in North America, it is in someone's house that is no bigger then the living room in my home. And they accommodate anywhere from 150 to 200 kids a day !!!! you truly have to see it to believe it. It was crazy hectic, but the kids and staff seemed to really enjoy us, so it made it all worth it. Easily some of the cutest kids I have ever seen in my life. Also I forgot to mention that the kids were from the ages of 3 to 6 so they were FULL of energy. I know I could never do that type of work but I truly admire people that get called to do it.

As for the rest of the week we ended up doing a lot of street ministry. What that consisted of was just writing nice little notes in spanish and handing them out to people. With that we got to pray over some incredible people that were so excepting of Jesus. Really brightened our day when we were able to talk to people on the street, especially people that were in need. It really is easy to be here when people are so excepting of what your doing. There hasn’t been a incident yet where someone has been bothered with our ministry. All in all Leon had to be the most amazing week of the trip thus far. Was actually really bummed when we had to come back. Although I do know were only here for another 2 weeks so I really wanna spend as much time as I can with the kids in Bethel. Mainly my boy Jeffery, cant even explain how amazing that kid is. He is the one kid that I can just look at and know exactly why I’m here. We actually just had a really good night in Bethel last night. Its some children focussed holiday, so we had like a kids worship at the church and then had a campfire after with marshmallows. Such an fun filled night, minus the 3 and half hour church service. Im sorry, Im not sorry, I just don’t think I will ever get used to a church service longer then an hour. I guess the plus side is it gives you a lot of time to sit and read your Bible. Any who so thats what my last 2 weeks has looked liked, sorry that this one is pretty long but I feel the least I can do is keep everyone updated that helped fund my trip.

This last month has been a really hard one in the sense of what God has been doing in my life. Been a lot of painful growing and maturing, I cant explain to you guys how hard it is to hear the things that you need to work on constantly throughout the day. I really do love the people that are helping me change but, it is never easy hearing the things you do wrong. A lot of those things include my general maturity along with my ignorance and selfishness. I really encourage anyone that is looking to change to ask someone to keep you accountable. It is pretty darn hard to change by yourself, mainly because most of the time you dont realize what your doing wrong. Main example of this would be my joking around, a lot of the times it was fine and done in a playful manner. But, sometimes it was being taken offensively and that is something I did not want to continue. I would never want to use someone's pain for my enjoyment. I think Im just kinda in that desperate mode to make sure I don’t go home as that same selfish and ignorant person. I want to be able to lead by example and disciple people, not encourage bad behavior or attitudes. I really look forward to getting home and being that person I truly always was meant to be. All I needed was a little nudge from Jesus to see the person I could be. No one wants to be the bad person but, for some reason bad habits tend to turn us into them. Main prayer that has helped me along with my time in Nicaragua is praying for purity of the heart and tongue, along with mind. I find those are the best things because if we can sustain a pure heart and mind everything that flows from the lips can only be good.

Anyways enough ranting on, If you guys were able to get through that essay congratulations sorry it was so long. It actually kinda makes me happy to know I still have the patients and attention span to write this much in one sitting. Hopefully this carry’s over to college next year, who am I kidding that will never happen. Sending love back home to Family and Friends. BIG Thanks to everyone for the nice messages sent on Facebook.....

Peace Out!!!!